Remembering Rama - Dr Frederick Lenz

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Desert Trip Anzo Borrego July 3rd & 4th 1983
by I. Nito

While driving back home I felt great.
The line of endless headlights on the winding mountain road that stretched all the way back to where we'd parked.
The stream of friends in a great state of awareness.
The stars were dissolving into the reddish hue of the horizon.
As the sun neared it was a joy filled feeling.

Very few times do I ever feel that complete.
As I neared Lake Henshaw, the sight of a low ground fog that was sitting on the grass was unreal. I felt like I was in another world.
The fog stretched all the way across the lake and it felt like you could walk on it to cross over the water.
What a sight!
Looking at it was a majestic feeling that I won't forget.
At that moment I could of very well been on another plane. A timeless feeling.

The night before I had parked my car and walked up to the place in the desert we all gathered in the beginning.
It was a very peaceful evening.
Just sitting with a large group of beings who share similar interests is as amazing as anything.
Most of the people at Lakshmi I don't even know but I consider them all friends.

Nighttime in the desert took over.
It was wonderful.
A cloudless sky filled with millions of stars.
As we walked into the place of power we made one rest stop.
Meditating there I felt a group of lighted beings on another level pulling me towards them.
I had the impression they were a group of friends from somewhere else using the desert as a doorway to bring me back into their awareness.
I was thinking of them as we resumed our journey to the power spot.

The swooshing of our footsteps thru the soft sand had a mantra like effect on me.
Right-left er left-right-left.

Arriving at the place of power we all sat in a circle around Rama.
While meditating I felt the Goddess Lakshmi in the center of the circle and a very beautiful love coming from her.

There was a jolt like an earthquake.
I thought someone had let the air out of my inflatable cushion.
It was only a short blast though.

At first while watching Rama I thought he was just acting silly to lighten things up.
He looked like he was walking on a tightrope.
Then all of a sudden he slid from one spot to about ten feet away as if on a skateboard.
I didn't think he was acting silly anymore.
I didn't know what to think.
He said there were holes out there and something was grabbing at his feet.
Crazy.
That's one of the reasons I like being a student of Rama's so much.
He loves to blow our minds.

It was a different type of desert trip for me this time.
I had been seeing myself out there for weeks before the trip.
I'd use it as a launching pad into a different level.
I had a lot of very good meditations doing that.
Infact, I'd gotten a lot out of the trip before it ever happened.
I was imagining myself entering an awareness I once had while meditating years before +when I first started to meditate.
It was of a world so familiar.
A place that I seemingly was just moments before.
I was shocked that I ever could of forgotten being in that awareness.
It was as if a goldfish could get out of his bowl and see everything from the perspective of a human instead of a goldfish.
My problem is, I've been the goldfish ever since trying to get out again for another peek into a place I know I always am but can't remember.
I guess you could say I'm fishing for another level of awareness.

This desert trip I was hoping I could release from everything else and return to the aforementioned state.
I wasn't getting there though and was frustrating myself amicably.
Then while watching Rama in the center of the group, he was dissolving.
I saw him bend over and when he stood up again he'd lost his head.
That expression now embodies a new meaning for me.

It was at that time I decided I had had the wrong attitude for a Lakshmi desert trip.
It was silly to have a preconceived idea of what I wanted to have happen out there.
Live and learn though.

It was a beautiful night.
Rama had us all lie on our backs and look up at the stars.
While concentrating on a star all of a sudden it started to move across the sky.
Don't know how to explain it but it was a fun experience.

Like the other desert trip I'd been on, once you're out there you don't want to ever leave.
It's nice forgetting about everything else in the everyday life.

The way I felt driving back to L.A. was very joyous. Nothing had happened as I'd hoped in my mind and I had a great time.